Somebody told me that I should be more open

I'm not sure who that somebody is, but knowing myself, it's probably me.

I don't like talking about myself to someone else, which makes making a blog silly. This is silly, and you should be able to tell from how rarely I write for it. Check my private notes, writings, and 750 Words though. Kajillion of things in there, with both fiction and journal-writing mixed up. I wonder how it'll be in 10 years. Will I be able to tell which one is about me and which one is just about a random guy I made up on the spot?

Am having a pretty bad headache since yesterday. It kinda disables me from doing anything coherently. I believe I even hit my 9 years old sister yesterday, out of brain crannies. Ugh...

Is it normal, to often have headache like this? I've eaten, so I don't think it's hunger. I've relaxed, slept, but that's not helping either. The only tried and true antidote is playing Touhou 10 - Mountain of Faith, for some reason. Maybe I should just play it now.

Seventeen Days

This is a little piece of a rather abstract flash fic, inspired by this particular piece of music. I find the song so good, so emotional, that it nearly makes me cry, for some reason.

 

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The sky was raining fireworks.

And I was too far away to see it.

As the night sky seemed to burst with all the colors of the rainbows, followed with sounds like a million storm clouds gathering, I quickly grabbed the handle of my bike and pedaled as fast as I could. Spin, I thought of shouting to the wheels, spin like you've never spin before. Spin like your life depended on it.

The sky exploded, and the rainbow cajoled and danced in the air.

Whaddya mean GlassSkinned is Indonesian?

And fifteen years old?

I've heard his (her?) name in a lot of places now, and his songs come up in places. I would never have guessed that he has a more or less the same life that I do, relatively speaking to the rest of the world's population.

Indonesians folks have been cropping all over the net now, masquerading as someone from a more advanced civilization (read: I thought they're American or something, or maybe gifts from the heaven). From game creators like Lucidrine and Alegrium and musicians like Kayoubi, to a part of the out-of-Japan Touhou pantheon like Aichiya Sanae. Now there's GlassSkinned to be added to the list.

And, by my stars, they can speak proper English without causing me to vomit. Suddenly, I don't feel so alone in the world anymore.

Maybe I should try finishing up one of my stories too, just to have something to show as well.

Maybe I should try posting something more generic...

Since otherwise this blog is going to look like one of those dead fishes already floating on the surface of this sea we call the internet. I'm not saying it's not, I just don't want it to look like that.

Problem is, I don't really want to blog about nothing spectacular and/or emotional, but when I do find or do something like that, I prefer to keep them to myself ("This is personal, mate. Now go away."). I usually write about those kinds of things, even though they have all the feelings of a blog post, privately on 750words.Never heard of it? Well, now you do.

Maybe I should try posting my regular reactions of the day, or to general events, or to this book/game/music/movie I just recently read/played/listened to/watched. It'll keep the blog more alive, and it'll (probably) make me less of an introvert. I have a serious territorial problem.

Lol, blog, hi.

I've almost completely forgotten about you.

Or maybe I just don't ever feel like posting in a blog anymore, since nobody reads it. Which is odd, because I write a lot in 750 Words, where nobody can read it.

Maybe I should try promoting this blog or something. It'll be difficult, since my real life friends (which isn't that many) don't talk in English, and I don't think there's anything of interest here for my English-speaking online friends. So.

Oh, and here's a long overdue Happy New Year:

Happy New Year!

Man, I should do better than that for next year. I remember making a .gif fireworks some years ago. It was for my country's Independence Day, but stil. It was pretty awesome.

Some folks might put up some New Year resolution think here. I have no such thing. I just hope that this year is going to be better than the last.

Oh, and get a better social life. Being a loner is hard.

Does anyone know where does this song came from?

Direct link, in case the video doesn't appear here:

It's a remix of Reincarnation from the third Touhou game, I know that much. I also know that it's quite possibly the most beautiful music I've ever heard. What I don't know is who made this arrange, what circle he/she/they is/are in, and where was this beauty first heard by the public.

I know the video description said it's made by El Dorado for the album Solaris Lues, but I have Solaris Lues and thsi track is not in it. I've also searched the Touhou Wiki for all songs that El Dorado has arranged, but Reincarnation is not mentioned.

So if anyone have any idea where does this particular arrangement came from, please do tell. I've enabled comment in my Posterous blog, in case you're looking at this from my Blogspot blog.

NaNoWrimo began yesterday

My first day didn't really go as well as I thought. School was murder, didn't even have enough to write five sentences. And by the time I got home, either my brain or my health was acting up again. Icouldn't think properly enough to write.

I did manage to get some words out by night, but they're so horrible I don't think I'll be using them for anything.

Any the story itself was not turning well in my head.

I'm not making any excuse, NaNoWriMo is all about throwing those excuses out of the window, after all. I'm trying to make a decision.

It seems I wil fail at this year's NaNo, again, for... what? Three years in a row? I never have a good commitment with my stories, always ending up with some unfinished excerpt that isn't even halfway there. Except for this one I've been working on but hardly ever written that I started when I was 6 or something, and is still mutating into something larger, they all fail gloriously.

So I suppose all I can do is either pouring way too much love on one story, or simply giving it too little.

Decision reached.

I'm still gonna join NaNoWriMo, but I'm gonna cheat. And I'm not going to call it that, I'm going to call it... actually, I'm not sure I'm going to call it anything, other than that weird alternative to NaNo.

So, the deal is, for 30 days, I'm going to write (preferebly also 30) short stories, with about the same wordcount goal and with the same system as NaNoWriMo. I don't care how many stories I'm going to end up with, or even if they ever reach their conclusion or not, I'm just gonna try it.

And another addition to the rule: They have to take place in the same universe as the three stories that I first planned for the actual NaNoWriMo, including that massive fanfic. Whatever the stories might be, they have to be clearly related to any of these three, whether by taking place in the same time, place, or using the same characters.

Who knows? By December I might already have enough to piece together into a novel.