I can't tell, not right now. I mean I can't tell the weather right now, and not that I'm going to find out later. It's 12 minutes after midnight as I write this. It's probably too dark to see outside, but I really can't prove it. I never have the guts to open the curtain at night, at least not without someone watching me.
Yesterday night I slept early because I wanted to wake up earlier. It failed horribly. Woke up an hour before noon, 4 hours after the planned wake-up time, even though I already carefully planned to sleep about an hour before I usually ends up sleeping. So for tonight I'm just going to let nature do it. I'm never much of an early-sleeper anyway, these days. My eyes persisted to have a more nocturnal schedule. I swear, they feel fresher at night.
The sky was bright and sunny when I woke up this noon. The sort of picture-postcard perfect kind of summer afternoon when you just want to get outside and play under the sun. Not an uncommon weather, but it's definitely rarer than the awfully-too-bright noon that we usually get during the Dry Season.
The weather got weirder as the sun started to escalate to the west. At 1 it was cloudy; clouds which at the end produced no rain whatsoever. The sky was slightly dark in the afternoon and, frankly, gloomy. And it was, for some reason, silent. Except for the birds chirping and the occasional four-wheeled machines passing by. The dogs are even tonight than then. It was like the sky, the whole neighborhood, forgot what weather it was supposed to be in.
I took my two cats out to the front yard then, because they kept running into the off-limit backyard. Figured they need some sun. But it was a bad time to get some sun, as, as I 've already mentioned, the sky was dark. They enjoyed it anyway, sniffing around at all the new smells. Being outside (the backyard has high walls and is mostly roofed. Not much of a yard) is new and rare to them. They don't go out much.
Through the day, I didn't go outside farther than my fronyard, and that's only when I took the cats out, despite the weather. I don't really have to go anywhere, since my school's not going to start until mid-April. But it was still... awfully lonely when I think about it. I don't have many friends I'd like to go out with, and I've never communicated with my neighborhood friends since we were 7 years old. I played with them a lot back in those days, riding bicycles and playing in the park in front of our houses, all under the sunny sky.
It feels awkward to meet them now. We got so busy with our own new life.
I didn't go out yesterday either, and the day before that, nevermind how he weather is. It's like I won't ever get outside unless I really have to. All the things I need, I can get at home. I don't have to go out much, so I don't go out much.
It's not sad, really. It's just awfully lonely, preceded with perfectly cheerful times. Funny, how it was like the weather today.
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Monday, May 21, 2012
Touhou sparks too many creativity
I used to sleep at exactly 10 pm. every night, even on weekends. This ensure that I can sleep long enough and able to wake up around 5 or 6 am. without any ill merit. Waking up and sleeping this early give me the advantages of proper communications and interactions with perfectly diurnal people without dozing off in the middle of their conversations..
Touhou completely ruins my schedule, not because I play the games, but because I play with its soul.
Dramatization aside, it's a well-known fact that the Touhou project has over 13 games, over 70 characters, and just as many locations. It also have a sort-of backstory and personality, each one of them unique, for each and every single character. Sort of. There's not much canon backstory and personality shown, but Touhou is already like a community project where every fans participate with making the whole story. Sort of.
Nowadays, every time I play Touhou, or read about it, there's a sudden urge in me to draw fanarts, to create fanstories, to browse the internet for its fanremixes, to basically do something about it. I don't usually make fanworks, since my brain is heavy enough with ideas to supply me with art and story concept for decades to come. But for Touhou it's different. It pulls me into it, begging and crying for me to expand what short details we have about its characters, world, and stories into something bigger.
Before I sleep, for some reason, that is the voice that speaks to me. So instead of letting myself into Dreamland, I would get up, get a piece of paper, a pencil, and doodle or write whatever. Sometimes it's not even anything to do with Touhou, but I know inside that it's somewhat influenced by it.
Then I ended up sleeping around midnight.
I already have about a dozen pages in my drawing book of Touhou fanart. Might scan it sometime. I also already have a couple thousands words logged in my computer for Touhou fanfic. Might show it sometime if I ever finished them. For now, here's some Photoshop results I made for it:
Touhou completely ruins my schedule, not because I play the games, but because I play with its soul.
Dramatization aside, it's a well-known fact that the Touhou project has over 13 games, over 70 characters, and just as many locations. It also have a sort-of backstory and personality, each one of them unique, for each and every single character. Sort of. There's not much canon backstory and personality shown, but Touhou is already like a community project where every fans participate with making the whole story. Sort of.
Nowadays, every time I play Touhou, or read about it, there's a sudden urge in me to draw fanarts, to create fanstories, to browse the internet for its fanremixes, to basically do something about it. I don't usually make fanworks, since my brain is heavy enough with ideas to supply me with art and story concept for decades to come. But for Touhou it's different. It pulls me into it, begging and crying for me to expand what short details we have about its characters, world, and stories into something bigger.
Before I sleep, for some reason, that is the voice that speaks to me. So instead of letting myself into Dreamland, I would get up, get a piece of paper, a pencil, and doodle or write whatever. Sometimes it's not even anything to do with Touhou, but I know inside that it's somewhat influenced by it.
Then I ended up sleeping around midnight.
I already have about a dozen pages in my drawing book of Touhou fanart. Might scan it sometime. I also already have a couple thousands words logged in my computer for Touhou fanfic. Might show it sometime if I ever finished them. For now, here's some Photoshop results I made for it:
Nuclear Utsuho
Original artwork by U-Joe of deviantArt
Mystic Oriental Shrine Maiden
Original artwork by Silver Forest doujin circle
Marisa Kirisame
Click for full-size
Original game artwork for Touhou Scarlet Weather Rhapsody by alphes
Flandre Scarlet
Click for full-size
Original artwork by marionette ex of deviantArt
I might use some brushes made by someone else there. No idea what or how or where. So if you somehow notice them and know where they come from, give me a call. If you're also the artist of the original artwork used in them and do not want these to be shown, also give me a call.
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
So, I've been writing...
A lot lately. Ever since I was a kid, I've always loved to make stories, creating worlds, messing around with my characters, et cetera et cetera. I also made a great deal of fanfiction back then; cross-overs, self-insert fics. You name it.
Amazingly, a story I made when I was around 6 years old or something is still continuing today, although it was never written fully and is all in my head. It started as a self-insert cross-over fanfic, then it grows like an abominable mutant into something... not quite the same. More mature, definitely. Feels like it's growing as I do.
But I'm not going to talk about that right now. I'm talking about the now.
So I like making stories, from the normal slice of lifes to the most bizarre fantasies. Sometimes I like to write them down too. The thing is, while my head can be stuffed with the most amazing details, it is not quite easy to put them on paper. There's word diction, grammar, punctuation marks, language; stuffs that my head really don't have to bother while creating the story itself. It's how to tell the story that's difficult.
And then there's the problem with length. Until today I've never finished a single story. Every time I start on a story, it'll just go on and on and on. Even if I do have the whole plot ready, it just never reach its conclusion. And since my head is like some sort of generator which can create new ideas every 5 minutes, I am most likely to just start a new story and abandon the one I already have.
Until today, yeah.
I just discovered the core of the problem which caused none of my stories to ever be finished: they're just too dang long. The world is too big, the plot too loose, there's too many nooks and crannies for my characters to visit. There's also a kazillion room for improvisation, which I use gladly without thinking about the long-term consequences.
So here's the current deal I made for myself: I'm going to try making stories that are just a snapshot of the character's life. A little piece of it, like a random interesting conversation between two characters, or a short but effective problem-solving. No more hunt for the mysterious artifact, no more fight between two ever-warring kingdoms, and no more quests to defeat the Big Bad. From now on I'm just going to try making a simple but meaningful story.
Well, that, and I'm going to stop describing every freaking thing in the story. The ones I made have a borderline Purple Prose. Sure, I describe the details in an interesting way. But how I write now is just not efficient and make the story way longer than is bearable.
I made a Touhou fanfic this morning. Finished it in one sitting. I felt absolutely brilliant. Might post it here someday, after I'm done proof-reading it.
Amazingly, a story I made when I was around 6 years old or something is still continuing today, although it was never written fully and is all in my head. It started as a self-insert cross-over fanfic, then it grows like an abominable mutant into something... not quite the same. More mature, definitely. Feels like it's growing as I do.
But I'm not going to talk about that right now. I'm talking about the now.
So I like making stories, from the normal slice of lifes to the most bizarre fantasies. Sometimes I like to write them down too. The thing is, while my head can be stuffed with the most amazing details, it is not quite easy to put them on paper. There's word diction, grammar, punctuation marks, language; stuffs that my head really don't have to bother while creating the story itself. It's how to tell the story that's difficult.
And then there's the problem with length. Until today I've never finished a single story. Every time I start on a story, it'll just go on and on and on. Even if I do have the whole plot ready, it just never reach its conclusion. And since my head is like some sort of generator which can create new ideas every 5 minutes, I am most likely to just start a new story and abandon the one I already have.
Until today, yeah.
I just discovered the core of the problem which caused none of my stories to ever be finished: they're just too dang long. The world is too big, the plot too loose, there's too many nooks and crannies for my characters to visit. There's also a kazillion room for improvisation, which I use gladly without thinking about the long-term consequences.
So here's the current deal I made for myself: I'm going to try making stories that are just a snapshot of the character's life. A little piece of it, like a random interesting conversation between two characters, or a short but effective problem-solving. No more hunt for the mysterious artifact, no more fight between two ever-warring kingdoms, and no more quests to defeat the Big Bad. From now on I'm just going to try making a simple but meaningful story.
Well, that, and I'm going to stop describing every freaking thing in the story. The ones I made have a borderline Purple Prose. Sure, I describe the details in an interesting way. But how I write now is just not efficient and make the story way longer than is bearable.
I made a Touhou fanfic this morning. Finished it in one sitting. I felt absolutely brilliant. Might post it here someday, after I'm done proof-reading it.
Thursday, May 10, 2012
I have many things to write about, really
It's just that I keep forgetting about them before I gain access to an internet-connected computer. I even have this nice story-style recount of my visit to... some tropical island... some time ago, but I never did get a chance to write any of them down. There are mentions of fishes, corals, ships, life, the universe, everything, and those darned sea urchin in it, but I didn't manage to write any of those down. Shame.
I've no more desire to write any of those blog posts I plan to write, mostly because by now I have no idea what I was planning, really.
So now I've got nothing to write about....
Oh, I just got two new pets! Two cute little kitty cats. Their names are Orin and Chen, taken straight out from the two cats from Touhou games. I think I'll put their photographs here sometime later, provided I remember to do it.
I also recently discovered that my obsessiveness with Touhou is getting rather out-of-hand. Not in a monetary sort of way, more like staying up way pass midnight drawing Touhou fanarts sort of out-of-hand. And spending hours reading Touhou-related things in the internet. And my drawings aren't even as good as ZUN's.
There. Now I've got nothing to write about.
I've no more desire to write any of those blog posts I plan to write, mostly because by now I have no idea what I was planning, really.
So now I've got nothing to write about....
Oh, I just got two new pets! Two cute little kitty cats. Their names are Orin and Chen, taken straight out from the two cats from Touhou games. I think I'll put their photographs here sometime later, provided I remember to do it.
I also recently discovered that my obsessiveness with Touhou is getting rather out-of-hand. Not in a monetary sort of way, more like staying up way pass midnight drawing Touhou fanarts sort of out-of-hand. And spending hours reading Touhou-related things in the internet. And my drawings aren't even as good as ZUN's.
There. Now I've got nothing to write about.
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